This train ticket, these trolley bags,

and all the packing going on,

don’t let me forget

that I shall be moving on.

The new life brings new situations

which are yet to come.

But nothing makes me forget

I already have some.

Gaining courage to establish the fact

that I’ll have another home

That lamp says- don’t forget

silent will be your room.

That Almira in the corner and

the wall clock over there

know, I can’t forget

memories made in here.

Dear Orchestra of my Soul

I don’t remember when it began

There was a little band

It was a sunny day

And I started to play

The guitar was playing along with my fingers

The music was all that lingers

The saxophone kissed my lips

A land, where my music never stops

But then suddenly I sneezed and woke up

Was that gone?

Pleasant shivers still remain

The music still lingers

It was an orchestra of my soul

I don’t hope we meet again

I hope our relation never ends.

Are miracles just MIRAGE?

What do we believe is always very different from what we should trust. Should we trust that magic, miracles, deities, gods and goddesses are all real? What if we find one day that the world is such a different place than we think it is? What if our beliefs are all untrue?

I wonder, have I ever seen or felt or experienced the presence of some force that guides me in my decisions! Then I wonder that maybe there is some pseudo force which I am unaware of. But it seems like everybody around me is unaware and all they have in their mind are just the stories and tales of great people whom we call Gods and Goddesses. What if these characters are just brave people and they are not any God who is watching over us maintaining the balance of our good and bad deeds!

Is it possible when sometimes we think it is a miracle in front of our eyes, is really a miracle? Or it is that we are just unable to understand the logic behind that particular phenomena.

Nevertheless, I want to believe in magic. If it is out there, it is awesome. But I don’t know anybody who has experienced the magic and has rationally deducted the characteristics of magic.

We call the unknown by names such as Magic, Miracle, God etc.

There are some videos about Lord Shiva being not a God but an alien which in turn, is again the unknown.

I totally believe that there may be a governing body over us which satisfies all our beliefs like :

1. Heaven and Hell
2. Yin and Yang
3. Great powers of Gods
4. Mantra
5. The power of Shloka written in the Sanskrit language

and the list goes on…

But what if all this is unreal? I never get any answer when I ask ‘Goddess Durga! are you with us?’.

What if it’s all just a mirage?

As a boy goes
into the wilderness of his thoughts - 
Listen! the choice is between good and good
or worst and worst!

Voices shouting - Lose, Hope, Despair, Beauty, blah blah blah!
The extremes of everything
pulling the soul towards themselves
tearing it apart.
So he believes as if the dawn
of darkness is here.

The soul rows from Past to the nearby Future,
escaping reality - he doesn't realise.

Shooting stars get hidden behind the bushes.
All control lost in the festival of loneliness.

He, however, isn't all broken.
Some shattered pieces he tries to pick up.
He'd do the best he can
for he won't return entangled.

Speeding up at being calm,
the man returns to the Present
with all his might and love
and starts a new day.

he's filled with motherly wisdom.

Now that he has learnt how to survive alone,
he can't be pulled down anymore.

Beware, kids, here he comes.

Dear Voice in My Head,

So melancholic you sound, giving me the luxuries of pixie dust! Where did you come from? 😊

Are you one of the songs that the birds sing near roses? I wonder why you seem so familiar.😜

You definitely aren’t any of the singer’s voices. But I feel like a lotus floating in your lap, kissing the soft waves of music, where the lyrics are the sounds made by the ducks passing by. 😍

Oh, wait! Is this what he sounds like when I talk to him? Oh gosh! That’s how I am able to make all this crap!! Hahaha. 😁

Why didn’t you attack me before? Why now? Is this your way of telling me that you are one of the best things that ever happened to me! 😊

By the way, I wish you never leave me.😉

I know you are in competition with my brain. I know how you felt each time when it said: “I don’t care.” And then you replied “You do! Stupid.” 😄

Hi

So, we meet again!😄
Last time I checked, your heart was my home. And your lips were my vehicle.😊

I am a knot that binds people together with love, as long as you live in my terms and conditions.😉

I exist in your fairy tales and Holy books.💓
It was always I who gave you insights of joy, belief, and understanding.😇

I mean no harm to anyone.  You have a problem just because you caught me off guard.😈
To save yourself in a tragic situation, if I say “blink”, you blink.😎

You are basically my puppet.😤
You better invest in me rather than using me.😏

We’ll meet again, soon. God promise!😜

Always Yours😌
Promise

I see her portrait-

Submerged in beauty and love;

He painted her in Pink.

What a beautiful little dove!

The blue sea resides in her eyes

and cloudy are her hair.

Every artist wants a glance 

they trust, it isn't elsewhere!

That painter knows his work

is not just an imagination

but the essence of pretty souls

of which universe is a collection.

Cheerful, gentle, voguish ladies!

with glossy skins in vibrant cloth.

Sparkle touch and sugary voice

and honey lips are lilac soft!

Pink depicts her constitution

not for what women fancy

but because his cheeks turned pink

when he felt her luminous mystery!

They met
he and she, together
for the first time.
She looked up in his eyes -
He smiled.

Days passed.
They became close friends.
She helped him in every way.
He was able to understand her.
She adored him, trusted him.
He made her win, everywhere.
Both felt something for each other.

They grew up.
The girl hoped something -
about their future.
She told him.
Both waited with the time.

Days passed.
And no one knows 
how, one day
they got married !!!
The two friends married ...

That was true love.
And
he kissed her
on her forehead 
for the first time.

And I went

on the road 

no street lights

DARKNESS

no pretty wind 

that's real night

little moonlight

cold weather

I saw

something

at a distance...

but nothing new

just street dogs

and no vehicles!

I hear 

someone following me

Oh! What's this now ?

is this unlucky me ?

And now

I felt

someone's hand 

on my shoulder

I shivered

I sweat

...

my heart announced to be dead

...

I turned

and ... 

A man, bearded

nothing to see in his face

except -

cleverness,

and nothing more.

He wrapped me tightly

in his arms -

I struggled

I was unable to breath

He tightened it

and it got

more and more

worsened.

I was shouting

so

he filled my mouth

with handkerchief

and made me

go with him

where... ?

Don't now !!

I realized

I must do something

Therefore, I relaxed

I relaxed in his arms.

I had to survive - I just relaxd

He made it loose

He pulled that crap, out of my mouth.

I said nothing,

nothing at that time.

and I went

with him

behind the wall.

Actually I wanted to 

restore all my power

Gain my strength

and I did,

and now it was

MY TIME.

He was walking 

by my left

I took out my knife

I turned right

then completed

my circle to

reach him from back

and stabbed him 

right there.

I pushed him 

He tried to reach me

get hold of me

my heart denied

and I became violent

I did all that I knew

stabbed him

again and again

kicked him hard

punched

pushed

knocked in the head

struck with knife

and I got reply also

He pulled

tried to snatch 

my knife

my life

and clothes too

I cried

shouted

ran from there

and

even then

he didn't freed me

in fact 

he chased me...

I was cruel

from outside

but terrified

from inside.

I found a rod 

picked it up

He reached me

tried to snatch 

and grabbed me

again

and I was not going

to give it to him

I managed to push him

by that rod

very hardly

and I bruised him

badly

I don't know how!

Finally, this time

perhaps, he was tired by now

he realized that I was not going to 

come with him

so he made some steps

backwards!!!

and amazingly 

he ran away

out of my sight...

and I 

dropped that rod

the rod - my friend

and all the fear

was now on my face

it dropped my body 

down

on the ground

I sat with 

..heavy heart

..filled eyes

..weak legs

..shaking fingers

..stabbed mind

and

...deaf ears...

After a long time

I realized again

it was night

and I was on the 

street, 

anything can happen 

again,

and I must move

must walk

must go

and I went

on the road

no street lights

DARKNESS.

मेरी कहानी !

आज कोई बात हो जाने दे 

वही संगीत, बज जाने दे

रिश्ता रहा अधूरा अब तक

साँसों को अब, मिल जाने दे

देखीं हैं दो आँखें जब से

मन ही चमक उठा है तबसे

बहुत अधिक गहराई पाकर

अपनी - सी लगतीं मुझको कबसे

आज फिर नई शाम आई है

मचलते हुए से काम लाई है

मेरी कहानी पूरी करने 

का इंतज़ाम कर आई है

फिर वही धुन बजेगी अब तो

और वही शख्स मिलेगा

जिसको सब दे बैठी हूँ मैं

मुझे मेरा अक्स मिलेगा। 

उससे मेरा रिश्ता सुहाना

सदियों से था हमने ठाना

मिलेंगे हम कभी भी पर

छोड़ के कहीं दूर न जाना।